Mostly I did nothing…I woke up wondering how I had acted the night before. If I had humped someone, harmed someone, or only harmed my own reputation.
Luckily in the coming days I would find it was none of these. But I always wake up from nights like that with a real panicked sense of anxiety. The interesting thing was because there was no reports back of dangerous behavior I found myself waiting and wallowing in a bit of self loathing.
One of the habits I have been engrossed in for the last year has been podcasts and the easy nature of consumption has me crushing through them. As I was attacking my various to-do lists(something I do with ferocity when I am delivering mental self-flagellation) I heard Ryan Holiday discussing his book "The Obstacle Is the Way: The Timeless Art of Turning Trials into Triumph," (I regret not giving the credit where it is specifically due because I do enjoy them both so much but it was with either Aubrey Marcus or Joe Rogan) He alluded to a part in his book that covers Edison and a massive fire that consumed his labs. I can not do it better then Holiday himself so here is his writing -
One evening, Thomas Edison returned home after a long day working at his research laboratory. Shortly after dinner, a man rushed to Edison’s home and delivered some devastating news.
A fire had broken out at his research factory a few miles away. Firemen from eight nearby towns were desperately trying to put out the fire, but were struggling to contain the out of control blaze.
Edison arrived and pushed his way through hundreds of onlookers and stared at the green and yellow flames, seven stories high, fueled by the many strange chemicals inside the building.
That’s when Edison quickly looked for his son and told him with the excitement of a kid on Christmas, “Go get your mother and all of her friends – they’ll never see a fire like this again!”
“What?” Edison’s son said, not understanding his father’s strange reaction to the horrific scene.
“Don’t worry,” Edison continued, “It’s alright – we’ve just gotten rid of a lot of rubbish.”
As I heard this story I was in the depths of self loathing that I experience after a drinking binge(Is one night a binge? Does that imply multiple days, or can I make up for duration with volume?) I realized that I was doing the opposite of Edison’s message. And to what end. Nothing. I either had actually come to a place where I meant to make a change or I hadn’t. Sitting around and mentally breaking my own self down over actions that had already taken place simply wasn’t going to fix anything.
I took some time Friday afternoon and really gave some thought to how alcohol was affecting me. The real irony of all of this coming after a night where I DIDN’T have any problems wasn’t lost on me but maybe that was what it took. Maybe it was the idea of changing because I wanted to and not because I had done anything wrong. The fact that even when it all went fine I still wasn’t happy with how it went was so clear and apparent. [Thanks Mushrooms ;)]
I decided then that I wasn’t going to make any long term goals and commitments or any of that. I took a few moments and thought about who I wanted to be and how I wanted to live. Thinking through the basics and the principals gave me shift in perspective. Instead of looking forward at some all encompassing self that I saw as a goal I just thought of the little things I wanted to do that day.
Knowing that the things would change from day to day I spent the rest of the day with a little extra pep knowing I was in a new mindset. One that has made me feel truly free since then.
I know they are simple goals and basic instructions but recommitting to them every morning has made all the difference to me.
One of the things that we have gotten going at Cruisers is initiating parties. Basically I reach out to folks who may have a reason to celebrate, invite them to Cruisers and offer them a bottle and pizza if they can meet a 10 person minimum. It’s been paying real dividends. I probably only land 20 percent but most weeks that’ll get me one or two parties. This Friday was a real example of reaping that benefit. We had a going away party pretty early at 7 and then a local influencers birthday at 9. Based on those two and one other party one of the other guys had set up we decided the band would be worthwhile for retention so the night overall was a lot better for just an hour or so worth of effort. Look at me, I’m a promoter lol
Saturdays in my life nearly write themselves most weeks. A lot of my day after the gym is just me catching up on personal life. Laundry, gym, tanning(just kidding I mostly answer personal emails and review my finances to make sure I’m not slipping back into jack ass behavior. I headed into work afterwards but it was a fairly mellow night and I was out by 11 and off to bed for the early Sunday open.
I am truly a morning person I hit the ground running. Social morning person…not exactly. I just don’t want to be caught up in a conversation or even really any social interaction before I’ve had a chance to settle my mind into the right framework for the day. If that was a little true before it has become doubly so since I’ve adopted a habit of setting my mindset directly at the beginning of each day.
After the tragic loss the Vikings suffered on Thursday I did get to go through the day wit a little more focus on my job. Normally I have half an eye on the Vikings game and a full eye on the score. Which I can fully acknowledge leaves me sometimes lacking in attention span for other tasks, you know…like customers.
Once work was done I made it a point to get my week set up for success. Taking the time to have all the things I need; gym clothes laid out, shaker cups set up, meat marinading. All the little things, really make it so I can jump into where I want to be as soon as I am up.
I DRAAAAAAAGED at the gym this morning. I had everything laid out, so I got going on my routine. Once I got there though it was just all a little longer than I wanted, from the weigh-in on the InBody scale to the time pent lifting, it all just ran a little slower than scheduled, which led to me getting into class just a few minutes late. Unfortunately those minutes included me getting into the HIIT class late enough that teams had already all paired up so I just added myself on to the first team that was short. Unfortunately(or lucky for me?) the team I joined on only had 4 of 6 members. So when we started out at battle ropes with no chance to meet my team or really even make them aware I was joining them I was forced to improvise. Because I am a masochist when I make an error the nearest approximation of battle ropes with pushups I could think of was to do burpees. Even Sarge called out that I was gonna regret that once he saw me start in…He was right!! But I pushed through class.
As I went through my morning analyzing my sleep I couldn’t help but realize the fact I got plenty of it and still felt run down could only be attributed to the one variable I had missed on. I had finished the book I was reading, Wall of Tears, and wasn’t quite ready for sleep. As I am prone to doing as soon as I deviated from my routine I forgot the little things. One of my late night habits that has drastically improved the quality of my sleep and therefore my energy and efficiency the next day has been my Enigma blue light blocking glasses. Obviously this is a myopic case study of one, but I know it can’t have helped what would’ve been an otherwise ideal night. Early to bed a little reading, all of the tools I wanted for the next day ready to go, but that one deviation cost me what would have otherwise been a solid morning.
I went from the gym and hit Trader Joe’s for a few fresh vegetables. I am particular with this. I love fresh crispy veggies in a lot different forms. Ok mostly the same form but different avocado oil dressings will make for a nice variety out of the same veggies. Once those veggies begin to wilt or show the first sines of aging and softness I have to toss em. Spoiled I know, but if freshness is what keeps my diet on point I can make it a point to every other day the store.
One of the changes I decided on this week was to start doing my measurements on Monday so that I can keep current on posting my transformation on Tuesday. It was another good week of habit and and in turn I got some progress. I dropped from 23.9% to 23.2% on my body fat percentage. That leaves me about .5% ahead of my pace schedule to get #To15by215